“Draw near to God and he will draw near to you” James 4:8
I recently wrote a post title “Busy is not in My Vocabulary”. I’m not sure, though, that many people understood it. There don’t seem to be many people like me who have been forced to slow down so much that “busy” doesn’t really apply to their life.
I have written a lot of blog posts talking about my chronic illness, M.E., and the difficulties it has brought to my life. But I was talking to my husband the other night and I realized that I have something very unique that most people will never experience – something I am very thankful for.
I spend a lot of quiet, calm time, just being with God. It just happens. I don’t need to carve out time or set aside a special day or hour. I don’t need to seek big new revelations or challenges. I just get to simply enjoy God’s presence.
My very best times are when I am painting. My ears are filled with soft music, my mind is focused on beautiful creation and my heart is so in tune with God, it’s hard to stop painting!
I seriously don’t think i would have been able to comprehend such a close, quiet relationship without this illness. I know I would have never taken the time to learn to paint. And painting has become the best time to sit and talk, listen and be with God.
I find that often people want to encourage me that I’ve accomplished something. And, I must admit, I sometimes fall into that trap myself. But the truth is that Jesus summed up God’s commandments by saying “The first is this… Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and spirit. And the second is this… Love your neighbor as yourself.”
So I remind myself, that every day, I am accomplishing something quite important… even when I don’t “do” anything!